This is a hashtag currently trending on Twitter, & it’s a vitally important one.

I’m too fatigued to write out much about it, but here are some screenshots.

And here’s my story

And here’s some ridiculous individual who totally missed the.point of the movement:

And my response:

I find it so hard to believe how some people are missing the point of #DoctorsAreDickheads.

WE KNOW not all doctors are disgusting human beings, that’s not the point here. The point is this is a way for patients to be heard – this is a way to shine a light on the abuse & neglect that the vast majority of chronically ill/disabled people face from medical professionals.

We are fully aware there are good doctors out there, but that isn’t enough, that isn’t okay…we need to be heard, & there needs to be change!

And there ARE doctors out there who are listening & understanding the movement!

I’ve retweeted a few good threads if you’re on twitter, I’m (@)SendSpoons 🙂


World Mental Health Day 2018

It’s #worldmentalhealthday 🎉

I’m diagnosed with major depressive disorder, generalised anxiety disorder, bipolar w/ psychosis, dissociative disorder & BPD. I literally have no idea how it is to be stable, to be neurotypical.

There is SO MUCH stigma surrounding mental illness, & in the UK at least it feels like we’re actually going backwards in terms of understanding & support for people who are mentally ill.

There’s finally a push for more common conditions such as depression & anxiety to be talked about, accepted & better understood – which is fantastic! But unfortunately other conditions are still heavily stigmatized, in particular BPD & psychosis. Individuals are viewed as scary, violent, selfish, manipulative…

In the UK, BPD(/EUPD) as a diagnosis is pretty much a death sentence in terms of treatment. It’s also VERY difficult if you’re wrongly diagnosed to then drop the BPD diagnosis, in order to be accurately diagnosed with something else. Even if you’re one of the lucky few who IS able to get reassessed & re-diagnosed, you’ll find its still brought up often, or you’re treated differently because BPD is mentioned on your file.

The way MH is perceived/treated in the NHS in general needs a massive overhaul. Support is hugely lacking, doctors are uninformed and uncaring…& people are dying because of it.

I know from my experience I’ve had numerous traumatic appointments, & my fair share of abusive doctors.

I’ve been told in regards to having hallucinations that I must be taking recreational drugs. I was 19, & already terrified. I was belittled, treated like dirt, left with zero trust for doctors. Tbh not much has changed since then haha! But after that experience I didn’t try get help in regards to my MH for months.

Even recently – my last suicide attempt was 6 months ago; two days before the attempt I’d been to my GP begging for help. Only she didn’t listen. She didn’t take me seriously; she offered no support, treatments or solutions, simply telling me to ‘come back if it got worse’. The message I received from that was “I’m not taking you seriously, I won’t do anything even though you’ve told me you’re actively suicidal. You have nowhere else to turn.”

There needs to be much more awareness & understanding, ESPECIALLY from medical professionals. These are people we turn to in desperation, & it’s all too common for them to turn us away or make us feel worse.

It’s all well & good for MH charities to produce campaigns telling us it’s okay to talk about how we’re feeling, that we should go to doctors if we need help or A&E when we’re suicidal…but it means NOTHING if when we go to A&E we’re belittled, laughed at, & bullied.

The stigma surrounding MH needs to be eradicated, & it’s the medical professionals who need to be targeted first & foremost.